Letter to love

Letters to love

See the thing is i love my wife but i havent felt loved by her. Maybe men aren't supposed to feel. But im very fragile, I just wanted to feel good. Im a fool and this is what foolish men get for wanting to feel.

I recall a whisper in my mind, dont act like a bitch when shit starts to happen. I may be a bit of a bitch

Nose bloody
Emotional novicain
Teeth shown
Universal plans
I do not understand
I am lost
Back to wall
Loveless fight or flight
Emotions ive never felt

Something happened to me in may. i dont know what. im not sure who killed me. But i am all heart and dying. I blame me, i blame you i blame her. I blame the love of my foolish heart. I dont know what happened to me. I wish i wasnt a fool. I wish i knew how to love and what love to recieve. You are beautiful and i never could have you. I never could hold on to you. You are too much woman for me and now, i see. I must have died and not been burried yet. Some force is against me. In my head pressure, some evil posseses me. I can not come near you without hurt. you deserve the best. I knew i was falling and even you can not save me. Do not forgive me and never forget. I will do my best to survive this. But the lover i had is no more and was lost years ago.

I need a woman thats got my back not holding the knife in it

But i still love her.

There is no devil, good or evil. Just two fools young in love passion stale over time, revived with jealouslys vengeance. the machine of marriage not inclined to move in two different directions.

I promise

Promise is the glue that holds life to the body. Even that is just a little while.

Love in the hand

Yin and yang - darkness and light. What do you know of my nature that you fear my back and adore my front.

She is intended for the purpose of adding leather to my heart and a shield to my soul.
The pain is for purposes only known to me. I rejected her and mother nature herself chastises.

I was not looking for her she found me. She is and i am. We are aware of each other but power is created through resistance. Seeds are planted in darkness.

Funny when they ask whats wrong with me...

well i seek after knowledge of self, peace, love and enlightenment,

i am as i always have been.

What are you after ?
security, fun, a piece of ass, approval.

If i am strange to you then everything is as it should be.

My yoke is easy and my burden is light.
I am free
you cling to flesh.

The buzzing bees of frantic distress swarm your head. Quiet now be still follow the heart not the head.

Love is at hand

Sun God

I must be silent, she can not digest me. I am bitter to her sugar taste. Bitter like the green herbs that produce health and life. I am intense like the sun that warms your cheek. You love me and i am essential to you but you fear me because i will consume you. If you dare to hug me you will not exist any more. You will burn and become one with my flame.

Slippery Gentleman

How to be a millennial gentleman....  WTH

I still like to open doors, do nice things and etc Its more for me than you.

I prefer to be a gentleman in the company of a lady.

I will not necessarily try to speak to you because i prefer organic relationships.

I will not "plenty of fish" or "eharmony" you.

We will know each other by our primal natural instincts.
The Goddess Nature herself will invade my spirit and guide me to her.
I Am a gentleman and I Am in complete control by giving in to "what is."

Wife Wise

Wife Wise

Words have meaning.
There is a reason for similarities in the etymology of words.
Word comes from sound which come from the center of my being.
formed out of my breathe of life.
Words have power. Titles have power. You have power.

Wise wife.

He who finds a wife finds a good thing.

Is not you... its me

Its not you its me...
That tired ass cliché men say. Let me translate, Bitch since your a perfect goddess angel above following my lead and too much of a coward to lead for yourself then i must be inferior and not capable of being your man. Good luck.

being polite about disregarding what i need from you does not mean it goes unseen. It just means i had xxyears of forgiveness.

I say the translated line as a favor to return the kindness.
A little sugar for your shit.